Getting more excited about my goals

Half a year is almost gone. I did some reviews of my life and goals because to be honest, life hasn’t been good at all even after the resolution-setting early of this year. Goals that I’ve set isn’t motiving enough for me to live my life out..
For today, I realised, that it is important to find that something that moves and excites you, makes your heart pounce, makes your palm sweaty, and that it will make you feel you will do whatever it takes to achieve it in no time.

Do you have one of those in your list right now?

Talking about this, I always know what I want to achieve in my life (from the list of 100 goals to achieve in life), but I just don’t see myself walk towards achieving it quick enough.

Today, I finally realise that all these whiles, there’s something missing in my goal setting process. Besides setting the priority level and the time frame to achieve for each of the goals, we should also add in the excitement level. Without the excitement in our goals, I guess it will be difficult seeing yourself in achieving it, and thus will be difficult in planning it.

Kinda found my new perspective in life.

I am thankful enough to realise that I have to walk my life in a new direction.  =) I feel more excited to go on travel and explore the extreme than anything else. So I reset some of my goals.  Before this I never thought of bringing this up to the top of my list because I wasn’t brave enough and also didn’t find anyone to do it with me. After all, what I am grateful mostly is to be able to meet a chance that ( or possibly that someone who) thrill upon me, so it’s my job it grab it and accept that invitation the universe gave.

” The Universe like speed! Don’t delay, don’t second guess, don’t doubt!”

“When there’s Opportunity + Impulse + Intuition —> Act!!! , that’s your job, that’s all you need “

                                                                                                           ~ The Secret

So after reviewing, this is what I want to achieve in this half a year:

1. Bungee jump
2. Visit Singapore
3. Go on a back pack tour
4. Resuming Music Lesson
5. Renovate my kancil
6. Saving a deposit for a new car next year! =)

( Sorry my dear Sandra where most probably I won’t be getting a branded bag so soon as we planned. )

Of course if you realise, making a lot of money is not in my goal list, because for me, I don’t work for money, I work for my dreams.   Those are the results I aim for. Earning money is just a process of producing the results. So I guess, with this mindset, I’ll be more motivated to make that money, and it will never be any more difficult.

” Are you thoughts worthy of you? If not- NOW is the time to change them. You can begin right where you are right now. Nothing matters but this moment and what you are focusing your attention on.” 

                                                                                                                               ~ The Secret

Here I come world! Am about to create my own universe. Prepare for a better Zyvene!

 

Should you save, invest or spend your year-end bounty?

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迷失日记

今天在整理文件夹时，发现了一个自己在 x 月前写的一个心情写照，竟然被自己的文字给打动了。

当时写这篇文字时，只想要自己私藏，没想过要公开。 没想到几个月后自己看回，才读第一句，就被深深吸引住了。这时的我，都忘了自己曾写过这样一篇东东。

x月x日

有时候感觉孤单不是因为没有人陪，而是失去了自己

再多的应酬，再多的人陪，再多的party, 到最后却过不了自己的那关。

我们应该成为自己的最好朋友。在最无助时，其实自己是个能制造作最大帮助的人

一个人有什么大问题？也死不了啊。

平时和别人出去都是戴着面具的， 一个人的时候都可以拆出来，多释放啊。

 

*我寂寞寂寞就好，这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱……人本来就寂寞的* – Hebe

 

今天下午在上课时候崩溃了。 在老师Alan面前哭得很厉害。

我也不知道为什么会哭得这样厉害，唱的是丁当的一半。

唱到那段：快乐少一人分享，快乐就只剩一半，喝一碗汤心怎么都不够暖……就唱不下去了。

他说了一句， 人总在选择前犹豫，或在选择之后后悔，但我们都必须承上那责任。一旦开始了，就坚持下去，而且要做得最好！

- 其实他是说，明知道这首歌是会波动我情绪的，要嘛就别选唱，要嘛就借用那情绪唱到最好。 一样的，在生活上我们所面对的每件一件事，都要拥有这心态。 （旁白：就是爱上课，学技巧再学生活哲学。）

 

现在（晚上）回想刚才，感觉也没什么。

只是那一瞬间整个情绪失控，不断地哭。脑袋里想的是什么?  不太记得，只是记得当时很敏感，歌词所说的就好像我真实生活写照，触碰到里边的情绪，就这样一触即发， 眼泪不断掉。想了很多负面的东西吧。还有被一些周围的情绪影响。

 

今天重温起来好像被电击了一样。我竟然忘了我有这积极过，哈哈！

我们很多时候会迷失自己。比如说日夜地在忙工作，面对感情问题，生活压力或在某个环境太久了，却没有发现其实我们心灵陷入不太健康状况。

几个月过去了，年底也要到了，也该为自己的心灵检检查，再想想自己当时某年某月一心积极所设下的人生目标，我们还在轨道上吗？还是已屈服于生活？ 年尾不是结束，是另一个开始。继续冲刺吧！当然要适当地给自己休息与反思的空间 =）

When you have the Will, you'll soon be the Legend.

大家加油！

Love & Hugs!

 

有想过好的生活吗？

 

Announcement: Page’s Up!

After a long time been ‘under-construction’,

finally the ‘Dealing the Emotions’ page is uupppp!!!

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Love Attack

This evening came across this article in Reader’s Digest: Why Love will Keep you Alive..

Yes, Love is pleasurable were we fill the attention and care. We also can’t stop a person from loving us. But, what if we don’t love a person as much as they do love us.. is there fair in relationship? Or it is just a gamble, we never know when it’s gona start or end?

LOVE, it’s a huge topic to talk about, and I’m not the best person to write about it, but with my understanding, there are many different types of love-  family love, friendship love, brotherly love, romance love, soul-mate love, patriotic love and etc. There’s so many love existing around us and many times we just ignore them as this is very depending on individuals to priorities and extract the essence from it.

In romance, many times we have crush on people we thought that we love, but in fact, is it Lust, Infatuation or True Love? These three involves emotions but true love requires commitment while lust requires the least. You can also differentiate it by looking at how selfish you are in the relationship. True love is never selfish.

Most of us know that there are stages to reach true love in romance. All we need is the courage to start because we’ll never know whether it works or not until we give it a try. But TRY? All I know, unless you are a player, love is never like clothes that we can simply try on in the fitting room. There’s always price to pay and be committed. Otherwise, there’ll be people getting hurt and bringing negative impact in his or her life, and this is a serious matter!

Yet, if we already know that the relationship will never work, got dumped or rejected, move on!! There’s so much more possibilities in the world outside. Remember I’ve mentioned above? There’s many love that we neglect in life. You say that you will only love your one and only honey forever? ah ah, don’t be that sure. =) There’s no absolute in life. Some times, we will only be sure of our right one after several attempts.

Never be sad and give up with love after broken relationships because we’ll grow each time until the we find the right one. Each break ups or fall is just a check point of life, treat it as a learning, it allow us to see clearly at which types of partners we can or can’t be with.

It’s never easy to meet our true love and happiness. All we need is to pursuit with courage and right attitudes. Every person treat relationship differently, even if you are a player, there’s nothing wrong. But is definitely wrong if it’s harming others. Play responsibly and save. =)

There’s an advice that I always wanted to tell to those who are in relationship, which is NEVER FORGET YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY especially when you are deeply in love with your partner. No matter what, we must balance up between lover, friend, family and work/studies. Spend time with others who love you as well.

Love makes the world a beautiful place, but don’t abuse it. =)

 

Love Ya.

x♥x♥

 

 

Asians.. on You Tube =P

It’s been awhile since I last published something.( There’s a lot in my draft though… there’s so many that I couldn’t finish without inspiration.. )

I’ve spent this two days staying at home browsing though Youtube, other than that also downloaded a few albums ( mainly Chinese songs=P) which sums up to almost 60 songs… – This definitively not an extreme case as I’ve seen before my musician friends can do it more than 100 songs a time..

I do love to watch Asian Vloggers. ( Vlog means video blogging). Well, one simple reason for it is to feel relevant.. haha.. Nah.. The fact is actually I don’t speak and present as fluent like they do, so I admire them… =.=

If you have never seen any of the Asian Vloggers on You Tube before, do check this few people out. =)

    MY TOP 10 ASIAN YOUTUBERS LIST 

 

Comedian:

1. NigaHiga: Ryan Higa- Japanese-American comedian. Currently the 2nd most subscribed YouTuber.  ( Recently launched his 2nd Channel called HigaTV)

2. KevJumba: Kevin Wu-  Taiwanese American comedian, YouTube’s ninth most subscribed comedian. My first You Yube channel subscription. <3

3. Wong Fu Productions: The three guys produce their own short films, music videos, vlogs. Writing, directing, editing, and even fashion brand.

4. LuanLegacy: Famous with his gayish high-pitched, fast-paced rants.

Music:

5. Jason Chen: A Chinese American who makes a lot of good music covers. Also make his own music

6. David Choi: A Korean American singer/songwriter/producer. Released two own albums and perform his original and covers on You Tube. Currently the 6th most subscribed musician on You Tube.

7. JayessLee: Very sweet Korean Australian twins Janice and Sonia (JS). Famous with their harmonic voices and beautiful faces on their music covers.

8.  Erin Paula: Filipino. Used to be in a duet group Rin on the Rox who got into Ellen DeGeneres inteview. The 15th most subscribed musician on You Tube

9. JasonYangViolin: Winner of the world biggest Asian-American talent competition. Known for his quirky sense of style and his talent both in acoustic, piano, and especially electric violin.

Last but not least, Malaysia Truly Asia:

10. Namewee: Wee Meng Chee, a patriotic and multi-talented Malaysian Chinese who made national headlines in 2007 with his 4-minute online video clip by adapting the National Anthem of Malaysia with his rap lyrics. Famous with his controversial music video. One of the top 3 most subscribed channels in Malaysia.

Well, besides all these YouTube Celebrities, recently I do checked out some of the cooking channels. Sounds like I’m good in cooking hur? Well, I’ll tell you what I searched for: How to make cheese scrambled eggs, How to fry Chinese Rice, How to make Oglio e Olio….   haha.. Now you know my cooking skill level.

Last but not least, I want to introduce a singer called Janice Yan 閻奕格. She’s born in Beijing but shifted to Singapore when only 3 years old and currently studying in Boston University. Well spoken with Mandarin, Cantonese and English. She’s a really great singer and up-shining star to be after winning a Chinese international singing competition 星光大道. Though she doesn’t have her own youtube channel, with her Facebook fan of more than 190 thousand, you probably should check her out.  =)

Here I attach a video of the behind scene of Janice Yan and Jason Chen of their cover Hate that I Loved You. In here you can see some other Asian Youtubers too. =) Enjoy!

 

Do You Feel Your Heart?

My short (actly quite long) reply for one of my Facebook comments:

        Maybe girls are more sensitive to many things therefore they are always been labeled as ‘complicated’. But is nothing to do with girls or guys. Life itself is complicated, just the matter whether you sense it or you are just plainly going through it.

       Everyday, every single action, or every single people you talk to, ask yourself are you facing it with ur true self (or heart) or wearing that invisible masks? What are those that we are hiding behind those masks? Are you happy doing everything you do? We have our own blind spot where we need to discover in help of others. By discovering it, we will increase our potential and being one step or more nearer to our goals.

 

 

 

 

I attended a two-days workshop this weekend skipping favorite vocal class and never regret because it is so far the best learning experience of my life. I shed a lot of tears, and also been through some harsh time in reviewing my true self. I’ve been to motivation classes or talks, but nothing beats this. We were experiencing and feeling the love and also our own heart!

 

Too much to write at this hour, will update more details in another post very soon. =)

 

Love.

<3<3<3

 

p/s: This post mean no offence to the person who commented. I am just relating my learning in the reply. 

 

Apologies for the MIA.

Close friends of mine do notice my recent silence and MIA (Missing In Action). Here I wrote this to apologise.

I’ll call it a ‘Burn-out’ period.

During this period, I had a ‘neutral’ mood. I wasn’t happy, but I WASN’T UNHAPPY too. It was really neutral as empty.

Some times, I just need some private time to re-think of my life or do things that I like to do, a leisure time.

Many times some situations I faced I don’t know how to react to, and I also don’t have much people to talk about, especially those very personal ones, that’s why I have MIAs. I know this is very bad because when time passes, those avoided stuffs eventually pill up to become stress.

Some times, I just don’t feel like meeting anyone.. Because I don’t wana give explanation… I don’t like people ask me how am I and what is my problem bla bla bla….

For others, I’m escaping, irresponsible, depressed, demotivated or sad..

I don’t want ppl to see me as problematic. I wanted was just a blank in my life and my own time, but it brought along many consequences.When I’m fine I want to be treated as FINE.. I want to carry on my life but I don’t want the shadow to follow. When ppl look at me i don’t want them to have that ‘face’ as though I’m some kinda alien or what… I am who I am.. I’m fine when I’m fine.

For what ever they say, I know I can be the better one.

However, during this period of time it makes me realise the people around who really care of me and I THANK THEM for that. You guys didn’t abandon me due to my mistakes, yet encourage me to find my better-self. Also I want to apologise for whatever actions I took that led to inconveniences.

What I’m lacking is the discipline and the courage to live. However I know if I really do, I believe that I will shine as the brightest star in the skies.

 

weekend… (updated) Me in Cartoon by Sunway Lagoon Artist

Went to Sunway Lagoon last Sunday by invitation from a friend Yeong Hwa for his company’s family day..

Didn’t have much pictures taken as we are all busy having fun in the theme park without bringing any ‘gadgets’ eg phone or cam along..
However, got my portrait drawn by an artist at one of the booths.

<—-  ( Noted that the thumbnail beside is just one of the camwhore pictures taken at HOME as comparison purpose, wasn’t exactly same like how I look on that day..)

The Cartoonised Me